Okay, I was holding out on updating my blog again until I had more info, but decided to post an update anyway. First, let me post here what I wrote down yesterday but didn't end up posting:
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(from Sunday)
I woke up several times during the night and had to resist the urge to get up and test. Finally, around 6:30am, I had to go to the bathroom so I ran in there, $store test in hand, and tested. Nothing. I was so disappointed. I squinted and waited a minute, but nothing. So, I got back in bed and fell back asleep very disappointed.
MrKLB and the dogs and I woke up around 8:30 or so. We were playing with the dogs in bed for a few minutes and MrKLB said "Maybe you'll be pregnant today." I said "I'm not." He said "How do you know?" and I said "Because I already woke up at 6:30 and tested." He said "Oh, well, that's okay, it could still be too early to tell." I was very sad, though, and I could tell he was, too. I told him that I'll just keep testing every day and he said I'm addicted to peeing on sticks! LOL! He asked if I should try a different kind of test and I told him that actually I was using the $store tests, but I had heard they work. I didn't think that was the problem, but I mentioned I had a couple of Clear Blue Easy digital tests I was saving. I wanted to use those after the $store tests said I was pregnant because I couldn't bear the "Not Pregnant" to show up. I shed a couple of tears but mostly held it together because I knew there was still hope.
Finally, a little after 9am we both got up and went into the bathroom. I picked up the pregnancy test and was going to show MrKLB it was negative and when I looked I had to double-take. I saw a very very very faint line! I showed it to MrKLB and asked if he could see it and he said yes. I pulled a couple of other tests out of the trash can from the past 2 days and we looked at them. The one from yesterday had a very very very faint line (fainter than today) and the one from Friday had no line. We were so excited but tried to be cautious. We said this is a good sign. I was going to try to hold out and not test again until tomorrow and just hang on to the hope of the faint line when MrKLB said "maybe you should try another test". Well, he didn't have to ask me twice! I grabbed one of the Clear Blue Easy tests that came with my ovulation tests and ran into the bathroom. MrKLB was waiting outside asking "Are you done yet?" and I said "It takes a minute!" He was reading the directions sheet (lol!) when I looked down at the test and saw the most beautiful word ever - "Pregnant"!!! I said "Oh, shit! Read this!" and opened the door. MrKLB looked at it and said "No way!" He was still reading the directions (I think to be sure it couldn't change) and I ran out and he hugged me and we both started crying a little. He said "We're going to have a baby!" and then he said "You've never been more beautiful to me than just now when you walked out of that door holding that stick!" We know we still have a long way to go, but are just so happy to have some encouragement.
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So, wow! I may be pregnant! I may really be pregnant!! I tested again this morning with the $store test hoping the line would get darker (I thought maybe if it got darker that would mean my HCG levels are going up). It was still a really really really faint line, though. So, I of course got nervous and had to break out another CBE test just to see that word again. So, I took the test and sure enough - "Pregnant"!! Yay!
So, I know that while this is a good sign, the only true way to know is to have the blood test that shows my beta levels. I'm trying to be cautiously optimistic. I will be at a conference in Dallas for the next 2 days so I probably won't get to post any updates, but wanted to go ahead and share for those of you that read this blog. Keep your fingers crossed for me! I hope this sticks! :)
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